Ok in my roll of achievements and firsts (sarcasm intended) another has been added. I have managed to get a prac down this semester.
The ignomity of the honour goes to hardware laboratory practical where today my program failed to run. It was a simple program but it blew up in my face. Tried and tried but the output never came.
Should have changed but the fact remains I thought I could do it. Guess I was wrong.
The tragedy is not that I have a down but the fact that a down seem to signify the steady degradation in me. Its not a blip but an event which just strengthens my fall into the abyss.
I can feel it and I have to arrest it coz this is not what I want.
The fall is best signified with what my teacher(also the internal examiner and one my favorite and most respected teachers(all are one person)) told me when I left the lab after the program failed to run despite the end of alloted time. Oza mam said and I shall never forget the words"Ashraf I feel like crying". This was my impression going down the drain. More than the down' it's Oza's mam words that trouble me pricking my conscience at every step. I hope it lasts fro a long time coz then I have hope.
Anyway guess its a sem wait to clear the prac. "My Bad"
Its ok..these are parts and parcels of life. You will get over it in no time. But the trust your teacher had in you might suffer a setback but then he/she should understand that programmes don't run all the time!
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