Ok in my roll of achievements and firsts (sarcasm intended) another has been added. I have managed to get a prac down this semester.
The ignomity of the honour goes to hardware laboratory practical where today my program failed to run. It was a simple program but it blew up in my face. Tried and tried but the output never came.
Should have changed but the fact remains I thought I could do it. Guess I was wrong.
The tragedy is not that I have a down but the fact that a down seem to signify the steady degradation in me. Its not a blip but an event which just strengthens my fall into the abyss.
I can feel it and I have to arrest it coz this is not what I want.
The fall is best signified with what my teacher(also the internal examiner and one my favorite and most respected teachers(all are one person)) told me when I left the lab after the program failed to run despite the end of alloted time. Oza mam said and I shall never forget the words"Ashraf I feel like crying". This was my impression going down the drain. More than the down' it's Oza's mam words that trouble me pricking my conscience at every step. I hope it lasts fro a long time coz then I have hope.
Anyway guess its a sem wait to clear the prac. "My Bad"
